Downgrading Citalopram–SSRI

Well, I hear and have been reading a lot about gradually going off SSRI’s. All this reading gives me hope. Others have been leery about going off all anti depressants for fear of the side effects and withdrawals.

The key to coming off Citalopram, for me, would be to be slow with lowering the dosage over a long period of time. I would think the longer period of time the better the results. I have tried to go off the pills before but failed because I tried to go too quickly.

This time I will take a different approach over the next 6 months. By knocking off a 1/4 of the dose and continuing this for 3 months then knock off another 1/4 of the dose every 3 months. By doing this the withdrawals won’t be as extreme. As I have heard the withdrawals can be violent.

For me this will work. Well, I sure am hoping and praying it will work.

Please do not try this without your doctor’s permission. We are not alike in anyway. Our issues are different. Our brains are different. As well, our doses of Citalopram are different, you should take caution.

Life is about…

 

If you are suicidal don’t read this. It might trigger…

There has been damage done in my past that I am not sure will ever be repairable. My brain has been altered for the worse. The life events have caused a huge uproar within my body. It feels as though there might be nothing left. If I am unable to fix or repair what damage has been done then there really is no point in moving forward.

Fibromyalgia is an awful thing to live with. The depression is nasty and the pain is unbearable most days. Society is having a difficult time with understanding people like me. There are so many others with this disease if society would just look around they would see!

The damage that was put upon me as a child has caused this disease. My brain has been altered and what else was it supposed to do?

I realise there are so many people who have diseases and major illnesses that will actually kill them eventually. Fibromyalgia won’t kill me but it could lead to suicide. Why or how can I carry on when I have nothing left? My life is at the lowest point; no job and can’t work, no family who cares, solitary confinement in my home, no friends and I don’t like to be around people, I wake each day wondering ‘what is the point?’.

If I could reorganise the house something might change. No, tried that.

If I was nicer something might change, No, tried that.

If I bought this or that something might change. No, tried that.

If I was mean and nasty something might change. No, tried that.

If I sang a song something might change. No, tried that.

If I stopped medication something might change. No, tried that.

If I made myself do everything right something might change. No, tried that.

If I got a job something might change. No, tried that.

You see, no matter what I do nothing changes that fact I have an illness that won’t kill me. I have to live this way for the rest of my life. I cannot run far and fast to anywhere to get away from this terrible life.

It’s hard not to think about suicide when you don’t see anything good coming in your future.